*hugs for all of it*

And ignore the part of you calling yourself hypocrite. You'd had some good experiences that last year of school and were excited with the direction you took. Grad school can be a grind, regardless of how much you end up enjoying the day to day. And if you decide to go the science writing route, as you had talked about some during college, you'll have more earning potential with a phd.

*hugs*