one more miracle

Yeah, I understand--I too think that Lee will never be the same after Kara's death. I don't know if you read my extended response (it's long! I wouldn't expect anyone to!), but I said that Kara's death will forever shape the way he remembers her (http://bop-radar.livejournal.com/88570.html) and then thinking further about it, I really feel that his grief is not going to be as simple as formally grieving (photo on wall stuff) and then getting back to 'normal' (http://bop-radar.livejournal.com/89137.html). I'm not sure he'll go off the rails though (though I can understand you wanting that): I think he's more likely to drive himself furiously in some new direction. Partly, I say this because we've already seen him lose it--in depression, in overeating, in drinking. It makes more sense to me that now he'll be determined to fight that, to live for Kara's sake and for his own. But I also think the strain of that will show and he will 'lose it' in some way down the track... I just don't think it's going to be soon or easy or a 'typical' grief reaction. And I think his destiny is still linked to hers--I think everything will be shaped by Kara's death. I just don't know how yet. :-(