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To Do this weekend!

-Watch Garden State A fabulous movie, I highly recommend it.
-Watch Naked Finish Naked
-Read history assignment
-Read English assignment/write journal response
-Correct senior thesis
-Find out if I got into Amherst.... FUCKING WAIT LISTED
-Do Calculus assignment
-Do Chemistry assignment (reading/problems)
-Study for French test (for Tuesday)
-Work on Faith video
-Work on Brustin moments compilation
-Read QaF fanfic! http://www.geocities.com/blaurosen/new_page_1.htm A great Brustin fic, I highly recommend it. Rec thanks to theaeblackthorn
-Read some of "Lord of Emperors" by Guy Gavriel Kay (a brilliant author, by the way, you all should read him)
-Rip the Papa Roach CD to my computer
-Find article for history presentation, start working on presentation itself
-Research for term paper
-Procrastinate endlessly. CHECK, twenty times. Look how much homework i DIDNT do! Yet.

Well that's a shitload of work. Needless to say the last one will get done the most. :)

Look at my cute new icon! Isn't it adorable? And so funny. it's done by kitkatbite, someone I just discovered who makes AMAZING QAF music videos, along with f1renze. Their website is here: http://www.kitzeproductions.net/

Now, QaF picspam just cause I can...

( Cut because I know pictures can crowd your flist! )

Hope you all enjoyed ^_^

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Alright guys it's rant time.

I got wait listed at Amherst too.

WHAT THE FUCK?! I have been a perfect student for my entire life, my GPA is a 4.45 out of 4.5, I'm on the varsity soccer team, ive done dance for three years, ive taken several art classes beyond the requirement, ive been in four AP classes, I'm a national merit finalist, i won a math competition in 10th grade, i starred in a play also in 10th grade, i volunteered at a hospital for a summer, and ive done other stuff too.

BUT THEY DON'T WANT ME. I'm not fucking GOOD enough for them. My entire life all i've been able to count on is that I would always do well academically. School is "my thing," it's the only thing that makes me special. So I naturally thought that I would get into a good college. but NO. I got into TWO SCHOOLS. That's probably the least in the entire fucking grade except for people who got in Early Decision. And the school that it looks like I'm going to, two of the dumbest people in our class ALSO got in there. I am so humiliated. I hate myself right now. This was such a huge step in my life and I fucking blew it. I should have applied to more schools or written a better essay or SOMETHING.

I just want to curl up into a ball and die.