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[exsequar]

Alright guys it's rant time.

I got wait listed at Amherst too.

WHAT THE FUCK?! I have been a perfect student for my entire life, my GPA is a 4.45 out of 4.5, I'm on the varsity soccer team, ive done dance for three years, ive taken several art classes beyond the requirement, ive been in four AP classes, I'm a national merit finalist, i won a math competition in 10th grade, i starred in a play also in 10th grade, i volunteered at a hospital for a summer, and ive done other stuff too.

BUT THEY DON'T WANT ME. I'm not fucking GOOD enough for them. My entire life all i've been able to count on is that I would always do well academically. School is "my thing," it's the only thing that makes me special. So I naturally thought that I would get into a good college. but NO. I got into TWO SCHOOLS. That's probably the least in the entire fucking grade except for people who got in Early Decision. And the school that it looks like I'm going to, two of the dumbest people in our class ALSO got in there. I am so humiliated. I hate myself right now. This was such a huge step in my life and I fucking blew it. I should have applied to more schools or written a better essay or SOMETHING.

I just want to curl up into a ball and die.

Comments

[grrliz.livejournal.com]

I don't know anything about the schools you applied to, but are they notoriously difficult to get into? Cause from where I stand your academic and extracurricular record look pretty damn good to me and I can't imagine why they're waitlisting you.

(Uh, I don't actually know what waitlisting is, but I assume it's not good.)

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Yeah williams and amherst are the two top liberal arts schools in the entire country and Brown University is an ivy league. So yeah, notoriously difficult would about sum it up.

Getting placed on the wait list means that if, after they've heard from all the people they accepted, there are still places open in the class, they'll start accepting people off of the wait list. So it's not a rejection. But you have to enroll somewhere else just in case you don't get in from a wait list, and you lose your enrollment deposit if you do get in and have to switch schools. I also now have to start writing letters and making telephone calls to try to get them to accept me. And I won't find out until mid-May to mid-June. Erg.

[grrliz.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Brown is the only one I've heard of, mostly in terms of it's ivy league impossible-to-get-into reputation. Waitlisting sucks. Depending on how much the deposits are, I'd accept at the one school and then wait and see. But like I said, that depends on how much the deposits are. :(

[ladylisse.livejournal.com]

Oh man. That sucks. I'm really sorry. >:D<

If it's any comfort at all, I know my school is cutting back on admissions because we're in a budget crunch, and my friends at other liberal arts schools are telling me the same thing. So I might not have gotten in if I'd applied this year, even though I did get in four years ago. Given what you've said -- yes, you absolutely were good enough for them, and you didn't blow it. If worse comes to worse, you can do like my friends did and transfer after a year or so.

...that was meant to be encouraging. I swear. >:D<

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Hmm. That's interesting, I hadn't heard that. If that's the case then my relative poorness probably has a lot to do with it (I need at least 32 thou financial aid, or maybe even more). Which makes me even a little angrier because should that be what determines the next four years of my life? More than my accomplishments?

I had thought of transfers.. though that terrifies me... having to go through this relocation twice?

I know you're trying to help, I'm just in such a bad place right now that no logic can help me. sigh.

[the5thmarauder.livejournal.com]

*cuddles you*

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

thanks hun.. *hugs*