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Apr. 2nd, 2005 04:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
exsequarAlright guys it's rant time.
I got wait listed at Amherst too.
WHAT THE FUCK?! I have been a perfect student for my entire life, my GPA is a 4.45 out of 4.5, I'm on the varsity soccer team, ive done dance for three years, ive taken several art classes beyond the requirement, ive been in four AP classes, I'm a national merit finalist, i won a math competition in 10th grade, i starred in a play also in 10th grade, i volunteered at a hospital for a summer, and ive done other stuff too.
BUT THEY DON'T WANT ME. I'm not fucking GOOD enough for them. My entire life all i've been able to count on is that I would always do well academically. School is "my thing," it's the only thing that makes me special. So I naturally thought that I would get into a good college. but NO. I got into TWO SCHOOLS. That's probably the least in the entire fucking grade except for people who got in Early Decision. And the school that it looks like I'm going to, two of the dumbest people in our class ALSO got in there. I am so humiliated. I hate myself right now. This was such a huge step in my life and I fucking blew it. I should have applied to more schools or written a better essay or SOMETHING.
I just want to curl up into a ball and die.
I got wait listed at Amherst too.
WHAT THE FUCK?! I have been a perfect student for my entire life, my GPA is a 4.45 out of 4.5, I'm on the varsity soccer team, ive done dance for three years, ive taken several art classes beyond the requirement, ive been in four AP classes, I'm a national merit finalist, i won a math competition in 10th grade, i starred in a play also in 10th grade, i volunteered at a hospital for a summer, and ive done other stuff too.
BUT THEY DON'T WANT ME. I'm not fucking GOOD enough for them. My entire life all i've been able to count on is that I would always do well academically. School is "my thing," it's the only thing that makes me special. So I naturally thought that I would get into a good college. but NO. I got into TWO SCHOOLS. That's probably the least in the entire fucking grade except for people who got in Early Decision. And the school that it looks like I'm going to, two of the dumbest people in our class ALSO got in there. I am so humiliated. I hate myself right now. This was such a huge step in my life and I fucking blew it. I should have applied to more schools or written a better essay or SOMETHING.
I just want to curl up into a ball and die.
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Date: 2005-04-03 04:48 am (UTC)If it's any comfort at all, I know my school is cutting back on admissions because we're in a budget crunch, and my friends at other liberal arts schools are telling me the same thing. So I might not have gotten in if I'd applied this year, even though I did get in four years ago. Given what you've said -- yes, you absolutely were good enough for them, and you didn't blow it. If worse comes to worse, you can do like my friends did and transfer after a year or so.
...that was meant to be encouraging. I swear. >:D<
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Date: 2005-04-03 05:14 am (UTC)I had thought of transfers.. though that terrifies me... having to go through this relocation twice?
I know you're trying to help, I'm just in such a bad place right now that no logic can help me. sigh.