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[exsequar]

I feel like I should update, just because I haven't yet today.

Nightrunner still owns me. You must read it, if you haven't.

Ummm. Because I don't think I've mentioned this in my journal yet, specifically, I leave for college on Friday. Meep! I'm really, really scared. I'm not sure why. I just am! I mean, all evidence indicates that I will be able to handle the work with effort to spare, but it's not so much that as the... interacting with people. I'm not really a people person. And having to live in close quarters with a person I barely know for the whole year is... scary! I'm used to having my own space, being alone most of the time. I like it that way -_- And now that all changes, rather extremely. Also, all the preparations are making me nervous, because you KNOW I'm going to forget something. And... I have this reading assignment that has to be done by Saturday, and I'm I think a third of the way through, and it's pretty damn boring (it's the Autobiography of Benjamin Franklin). I'm worried I wont have anything productive to say in the discussions at all. Errr. I'M WORRIED.

Also, I really don't know how I'm going to keep up with LJ, with my girls, and with the icontest! I mean, this whole summer I've been on for many many hours every single day, and it still seems there isn't enough time to do everything I want. I guess... I'm going to have to become less invested in my flist, and, um, just be less involved, or something. People on my flist who are in college - how do you do it? LJ is almost like a full time job -_-

Aaaaaanyway. That's enough bitching. I rarely do purely personal posts, so I hope you all forgive me! Back to my very gay novel!

Oh and, I LOVE this icon. So beautiful. It's perfect for my whiny post, lol. Tear tear indeed.

Comments

[redbrickrose.livejournal.com]

LJ is my main source of distraction and time-wasting. I'm horrible about procrastinating, and so I always have something like that. If it isn't lj, it's something awful like BJfic.net. My freshman year before I had an lj and was actively involved in fandom, I played minesweeper a lot. Hours a day on live journal is not do-able for me when I'm in classes, but as it is my main source of time-wastingness I do manage to stay fairly well caught up. Then again, I'm not really as involved as a lot of the fandom people on my flist are. I keep up with my flist, but I don't update everyday or anything like that.

I'm going into my senior year in college. I remember leaving for my freshman year and having all of those exact same worries. I wasn't a people person and I needed my space. I was (am) very close to my family, especially my brother, and moving away from them was difficult. I couldn't decide what to take with me and what to leave behind and I ended up with way more stuff than would fit in half a dorm room.
The worries are normal, but I'm sure you'll be fine. I was no good at sharing a space with another person - but I did it for two years, and found it much easier to adapt to than I thought that I would. Change is scary, but it's exciting too. Good luck! You're going to be fine.
*hugs*

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your comforting words... it's good to hear it from someone who's been there. Very good. *hugs* I'm still panicking from time to time, but... I think I can do it. Right? *nervous* As for the too much stuff, I *really* think that's going to happen, heh. I have these massive shopping bags sitting everywhere, and that's just the NEW stuff. Oy :P But, um, thanks again. *hugs*

[redbrickrose.livejournal.com]

You're welcome. I'm glad I can be reassuring.

Are you flying or driving? I flew and my mom came with me, so I ended up with four suitcases full of clothes as well as everything that I had mailed to myself prior to that - in a teeny, tiny dorm room. I still managed to cram it all in.

Oh, I panicked too. Frequently. The thing about the panicking and the fear, though, is that it gets built up so much that it can't be as bad as you think. Really. The worries are normal. It was hard at first for me, I admit that, but once I adjusted it was very "this is what I was so worried about?" It might take some time, but just remember that all of your classmates are going through the same thing that you are,