Computer don't fail me now :(

[exsequar]

I didn't post last night because my computer was being so hideously slow that it was a herculean struggle just to get my work done. It was trying to do a backup to an external HD and apparently that was so laborious that it just froze - like 5 times. It was awful. I left it running overnight with no other programs open and it still failed to do the backup. No bueno. :( I hope this isn't a sign of a deeper problem.

Then today I stayed at work until 7 PM just doing... stuff. Planning, grading, organizing, planning. My workload never ends, and I can never stop because if I do my kids suffer. I'm worried about whether I can keep this up for any significant amount of years. Of course I'm still near the beginning so it will get better, but I'm such a perfectionist, I can't see myself ever putting in less than 70-80 hour weeks. Ugh. You know, in other countries teachers are given less students and more prep time during the day. Oh and they pay them decently. Doesn't that sound nice?! Fuck America.

Ahem! I'm currently self-medicating with amazing pizza and BROOKLYN 99!! What a good show. Terry loves ecologically responsible farming practices!! <3 And Holt and Jake are teaming up! AMAZING. I also deeply love Amy Santiago. What a gal. If you haven't seen this show, DO YOURSELF A FAVOR. Seriously. It's happy wrapped up in a bow.

I LOVE HAVING A LJ TO WRITE MY FEELS IN AGAIN. *rolls around* Come say hiiiii! Tell me what TV you're watching!

Comments

[elucidate-this.livejournal.com]

It is CRIMINAL the way teachers are treated in this country. Criminal. But know that it will get better, even though you are a perfectionist you will figure out what works and what doesn't and things won't feel like such a struggle all the time. It sounds like you are an amazing teacher. Keep up the good work and remember there is less work in your future!

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, that's very sweet! Having my struggle acknowledged is really lovely, and I appreciate the support a lot. <3 I know it will get better but I don't think it will ever be easy. Not that it should be.