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You say you want a revolution
Oct. 30th, 2007 02:48 amI just got to talk to Michelle (best friend, studying in New Zealand) for the first time in several weeks. I gave her the very bad news (bag stolen) and then the very good news (Colin), and there was dismay and then joy! It was quite the conversation. I miss my Michelle like an arm. Soon she will be home from NZ and able to chat any time on Skype for free, soooo I will finally have a Michelle back in my life and I will be HAPPY. If you read this, Meesh, ILU :D
I finished one lab report. I was happy for about ten minutes. I read![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
airgiodslv's Jon-as-a-vampire fic (omg so good) and enjoyed it greatly, and then... I faced the next lab report. Which is so fucking shitty and I don't think I have all the data needed and I don't understand it and I want to cry and throw things and I HATE PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY.
*sigh*
There's so many problems right now. School problems, being an illegal alien problems, outstanding problems from my bag being stolen, money problems. If I stop and think about it, it's pretty overwhelming.
But on the whole, I'm happy! And I'm almost distrustful of that happiness, because it can translate into carelessness, and not getting things done that I NEED to get done, and I am such an inherently responsible person that that would stress me out to no end. And yet what's keeping me from blowing my top is spending time with Colin and going out with the boys. So I'm trying to figure out how I can balance that out - keeping my sanity by having fun, and keeping my sanity by getting the stressful stuff done. It's hard, yo. I've never had the social life dimension to consider before, not in such a huge way. And notice how LJ and fic and teevee and all the other things I used to spend my free time on don't even fit into the equation. I think that's the biggest conflict right now - I'm trying to fit three blocks into two holes, and it's just not working out.
Ack. Today was my first whole day without seeing Colin at all since we got together, and it's totally showing. AM I DEPENDENT ALREADY? *facepalm*
Okay. I need to go to sleep. Class in 7 hours, fuck. :P
Newsflash: LIFE HARD!
I finished one lab report. I was happy for about ten minutes. I read
airgiodslv's Jon-as-a-vampire fic (omg so good) and enjoyed it greatly, and then... I faced the next lab report. Which is so fucking shitty and I don't think I have all the data needed and I don't understand it and I want to cry and throw things and I HATE PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY.*sigh*
There's so many problems right now. School problems, being an illegal alien problems, outstanding problems from my bag being stolen, money problems. If I stop and think about it, it's pretty overwhelming.
But on the whole, I'm happy! And I'm almost distrustful of that happiness, because it can translate into carelessness, and not getting things done that I NEED to get done, and I am such an inherently responsible person that that would stress me out to no end. And yet what's keeping me from blowing my top is spending time with Colin and going out with the boys. So I'm trying to figure out how I can balance that out - keeping my sanity by having fun, and keeping my sanity by getting the stressful stuff done. It's hard, yo. I've never had the social life dimension to consider before, not in such a huge way. And notice how LJ and fic and teevee and all the other things I used to spend my free time on don't even fit into the equation. I think that's the biggest conflict right now - I'm trying to fit three blocks into two holes, and it's just not working out.
Ack. Today was my first whole day without seeing Colin at all since we got together, and it's totally showing. AM I DEPENDENT ALREADY? *facepalm*
Okay. I need to go to sleep. Class in 7 hours, fuck. :P
Newsflash: LIFE HARD!
