You say you want a revolution

[exsequar]

I just got to talk to Michelle (best friend, studying in New Zealand) for the first time in several weeks. I gave her the very bad news (bag stolen) and then the very good news (Colin), and there was dismay and then joy! It was quite the conversation. I miss my Michelle like an arm. Soon she will be home from NZ and able to chat any time on Skype for free, soooo I will finally have a Michelle back in my life and I will be HAPPY. If you read this, Meesh, ILU :D

I finished one lab report. I was happy for about ten minutes. I read airgiodslv's Jon-as-a-vampire fic (omg so good) and enjoyed it greatly, and then... I faced the next lab report. Which is so fucking shitty and I don't think I have all the data needed and I don't understand it and I want to cry and throw things and I HATE PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY.

*sigh*

There's so many problems right now. School problems, being an illegal alien problems, outstanding problems from my bag being stolen, money problems. If I stop and think about it, it's pretty overwhelming.

But on the whole, I'm happy! And I'm almost distrustful of that happiness, because it can translate into carelessness, and not getting things done that I NEED to get done, and I am such an inherently responsible person that that would stress me out to no end. And yet what's keeping me from blowing my top is spending time with Colin and going out with the boys. So I'm trying to figure out how I can balance that out - keeping my sanity by having fun, and keeping my sanity by getting the stressful stuff done. It's hard, yo. I've never had the social life dimension to consider before, not in such a huge way. And notice how LJ and fic and teevee and all the other things I used to spend my free time on don't even fit into the equation. I think that's the biggest conflict right now - I'm trying to fit three blocks into two holes, and it's just not working out.

Ack. Today was my first whole day without seeing Colin at all since we got together, and it's totally showing. AM I DEPENDENT ALREADY? *facepalm*

Okay. I need to go to sleep. Class in 7 hours, fuck. :P

Newsflash: LIFE HARD!

Comments

[little-lusty.livejournal.com]

Aw honey *huggles*
Like so many on LJ right now I lurk and read and then do not post because one - I never just write "hi" or "yes I read this" LOL.
It must always be a novel.
First YAY about Colin! Ah boys can be so good sometimes. Except when they are not...wait, what? Ah the voices have told me I need to shut up and not put my crappy dating life ("What dating life?"

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Aw honey *huggles*
Like so many on LJ right now I lurk and read and then do not post because one - I never just write "hi" or "yes I read this" LOL.
It must always be a novel.
First YAY about Colin! Ah boys can be so good sometimes. Except when they are not...wait, what? Ah the voices have told me I need to shut up and not put my crappy dating life ("What dating life?" <SHUT UP!> Yeah that was them again! lol) or lackthereof onto you. Colin sounds amazing and wonderful and full of greatness. Hold on tight sweetie!

Second - woe, woe, WOE on the bag. Holy shitballs I think I would lose it if I lost my purse. I know you will get it when I say my life is in there! My money, phone iPod, etc. Granted all can be replaced but still. My shall send good vibes that it all gets figured out.

Alright my little illegal alien LJ friend get some rest and I shall send you more good vibes aboout crappy physical chemistry!
Hugs, Brit

[airgiodslv.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey, hang in there. *hugs*

[trueshellz.livejournal.com]

"I HATE PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY."

me too
i have two lab reprts to write up aswell
*facepalm*

[terribilita.livejournal.com]

THANKS FOR POINTING OUT THAT VAMPIRE AU! *flail*