You bleed just like you puke while running a mile

[exsequar]

You guys, I'm starting to worry for my own mental health. You want to know why? Because meeting Gerard is still fucking with my head.

If I think about it too hard, I get kind of nauseous. It's mostly because I regret so much about what I DIDN'T do - I didn't get a picture that would have pretty much made the rest of my entire life, I didn't ask about Desert Song or pass on my best wishes for Frankie. I know that what I did was be a good, unobtrusive fan, but I can't help but feel like I wasted this amazing opportunity to let Gerard know just a little bit of how much he affects me.

As a result, I have a hard time listening to Desert Song, or watching the most recent interviews with Gerard. I don't even KNOW what the fuck is going on in my head and I really want it to stop.

ANYway. I'm addicted to The Used, okay. Since downloading their latest album yesterday, I've listened to every song 10 times. Um. That's 10 hours of the last, oh, 30 spent listening to them. WHAT? I just. I don't even know.

I still don't have the first two albums... *puppy eyes*

(So exhausted. So much work to do. Want to cry.)

Comments

[nebulein.livejournal.com]

(So exhausted. So much work to do. Want to cry.)

I feel ya. *sighs and hugs tightly*

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Gah. *clings to* I just want it all to be over, Neb :(:(

[pushingyouaway.livejournal.com]

*snuggles* this is what they do, bebe. they get inside your head and never leave. be strong. only listen to gerard sometimes.


it's almost over. don't fret.

*cookies*

[affectations.livejournal.com]

Here are lots of *hugs*. I totally get why you're feeling that way about meeting Gerard and why he's still fucking with your head even now. I don't know whether this will help but yeah at the same time, just appreciate the fact that omg YOU MET HIM and how amazing that is that you had that. You talked to him! How many people get to randomly bump into him in the streets with his wife and give him directions? Also this is sort of similar but not very but I will tell it to you anyway. Yeah I saw MikeyWay in Starbucks and didn't even go up to him and talk to him? Yeah I totally regretted that afterwards and felt like crying because umm I don't react to stuff normally and everyone said to me that it was amazing I even saw him and it is true! I'm still totally in awe that you met Gerard and talked to him! Also work is evil and should stop exhausting you!

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

*laughs* This was a really cute rambly comment, but seriously, thank you so much for it. I think I really needed to hear that said by someone else in their own words instead of my brain chasing itself in circles with arguments and counterarguments. It's true - I got to chat casually with Gerard Way! What the hell? I need to hold onto that, the fact that I have an individual identity in the mind of Gerard (if I ever met him again, I'm going to ask if he remembers the American girl he met in Dublin who was at the London show - that's a pretty distinctive description! *hee*) and that he was sweet and his wife was beautiful and it was amazing.

I'm getting kind of flushed again thinking about it, it's pretty fucking insane what it does to me. But it's more a happy pleased tingling than a I-want-to-puke sensation, so that's good!

Also, MIKEYWAY! Was he gangly and beautiful and precious??? *grins*

[affectations.livejournal.com]

This is a late reply but lol thanks. My comments are usually long and rambly so hmm you got one from me. I hope you're feeling better about it! Exactly, and you'll always have that to remember the fact that you met him and talked to him and it wasn't like an ordinary fan encounter like in a meet&greet situation or at a show or something. He will totally remember you as someone he asked directions from too! I just think you're so lucky and it's so amazing that you got to meet him.

OH MY GOD YES. He was really really beautiful up close, that was what caught my attention in the first place. ;D He totally rocks the eyeliner. And that really distinctive way he stands is even more precious in real life. :D

[expastic.livejournal.com]

I do the exact same thing. =/

I literally have to try not to think about the concerts I've been to, or when I met Gabe because I get nervous and jittery and nauseous.

I guess if it's weird, we're both weird? :P

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Really? Oh I'm so glad I'm not the only one. It just does messed up things to my head to think about it! Like - Gee was this complete abstraction, this person I admire and look up to a whole lot, and then he was there and real and I don't have any proof! And. I don't know.

*clings*

[jamesinclair.livejournal.com]

When I met Amy Lee I was so excited I couldn't say anything. I regret that a little bit, but on the other hand I did get to meet her. And that makes me smile.

[exsequar.livejournal.com]

Aww, that's kind of adorable. I still can't believe I managed to carry on a coherent conversation with him, much less talk to him at all. I guess I'm just being greedy - I need to hold on to what I did get!

[snuffkin.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I can totallz understand how you're feeling. At least a bit. A few seconds are never enough and there are so many things you want to say and how the hell are you supposed to remember them. But as someone said, you got more than most of us ever get and I'm sure he knows - at least a bit - how much he affects most of us :)