SPN 4x21 When the Levee Breaks

[exsequar]

Unpopular opinions time! It's almost exhilarating, I never have those.


Maybe I'm just an enormous wuss, but - THAT HURT. That hurt my heart and my soul and I am angry, okay! I am angry that they're doing this. It's unnatural and it's horrible and I know that's the point but - I didn't sign up for this! I don't enjoy seeing my two favorite characters ever spiral into pieces and break each other.

I feel like we've entered some bizarro world, and I am forever trying to find my feet, to see the Dean and Sam that I love in the characters who are on my screen.

I feel like an old woman, all "back in my day, everything was peachy keen and everyone's shit smelled like roses!" but.... it's just how I feel. I'm watching this show every week, I am, and I am horrified and invested and shouting at my screen, but the reason I am invested is because I am just waiting for that moment, that reconciliation that finally restores some sense of equilibrium. I didn't sign up for angels and Lucifer and the apocalypse! I want the dusty backroads of America back, I want those moments that make my heart constrict because Sam and Dean love each other so much.

I'm obviously here for the long haul, but if they don't return to the foundation of the show - which is that Sam and Dean love each other, full stop - I will, quite honestly, feel betrayed. They can go through this whole drama, okay, whatever, but they need to come out intact because it's what they do. That is the Winchester Way. And every second more of this is terrifying me that that's not the end game. If next season has them at odds, or Dean hunting Sam? Yeah you just try to make me watch that.

I'm still holding out hope. Everyone worth their salt affiliated with the show must know that SamandDean is their bread and butter. Not DeanandCastiel, not SamandRuby. Those are diversions. Except that I'm scared that I'm wrong there, that Kripke likes torturing us SO MUCH that he'll keep draaaawing it out and in the process commit character assassination.

That's enough bitching. I know it's considered raining on the parade, wah wah, but you know I've watched other shows about people who love each other where they keep loving each other! Shocker! Tearing apart your foundations just isn't necessary. And that's how I feel. I'll reserve my final judgment until the finale airs.

Let's take a moment to appreciate some of the moments in this episode. Little Colin Ford was so so awesome. And I was soooo happy to see Samantha Smith - however, is it just me or did she look REALLY different? Like her face has filled out, and she had a lot of mascara on or something? She was creepy, whatever was going on, but it was also a great scene. Oh Sam.

I think the most painful part was Sam hallucinating Dean bitching him out, intercut with Dean's anguished little face.

I do love that Dean was still able to find Sam, despite everything. Maybe there's still something there? Maybe? *hopeful face*

Sigh. I wish my show would stop hurting me. :(

Comments

[musictoyourlips.livejournal.com]

My heart hurts. :(

[theaerosolkid.livejournal.com]

LOOK I LIKE DEANANDCASTIEL A WHOLE LOT BUT REALLY BOYS LET'S MAKE UP BECAUSE YOU ARE BREAKING MY HEART THE END

[hopelessfangirl.livejournal.com]

I think I heard somewhere that Samantha Smith recently had a baby, so that would explain the roundness in her face.

Other than that, I have no idea what else to say. I agree that it hurts to see things go this way, but it hurts so good. And I've never lost faith that the show will always be about Sam and Dean at the end of the day, so I'm just hopeful for the reconciliation and in the mean time will go along for the ride.

[figletofvenice.livejournal.com]

I sort of disagree that Sam and Dean don't love each other. They always love each other - it's just that sometimes they hate each other as much as they love each other. Which, I don't know, reminds me of the first season - Sam really didn't want to be there at all, and Dean was still busy feeling betrayed that Sam had left. Half of what I like about this show is their issues. The show is about their issues, and sort of always has been. I guess I just like that there are new dimensions to that.

(Also, Castiel is quite possibly my favorite character, but I know not everyone agrees with me. If they got rid of Castiel next season, I would be pissed as all get out, personally.)

ETA: I forgot to mention that I haven't seen tonights episode yet, so I have no idea how that goes. I assume something big happens. But, there is a whole next season, so they have a lot of time to clean up their messes, no matter how bad it gets.

[mybabyangel.livejournal.com]

I second this entirely. DNW Dean&Cas, Sam&Ruby. Ruby can go DIAF and Cas... okay I like Castiel but HE IS NOT A SAM!REPLACEMENT. I miss the old days. ;_; Like in my icon where Sam could connect to Dean even when Dean was just a spirit or whatever.

[kaytvengeance.livejournal.com]

I've only been watching SPN for like a month (I dl'd all 4 seasons and watched them every night til I was caught up), so in a way I'm possibly not as affected as the people who've been in it since it started and actually had to wait between eps and seasons, but bloody hell that episode hurt nonetheless.

I am utterly convinced Ruby is a scheming minx who's probably working for Lucifer, and getting Sam to kill Lilith will probably open the seal (I'm going off of the promo shots of Lilith here). Lilith's number one, so she's supposed to sacrifice herself or something so Lucigfer can be free. I don't even know anymore.

I'm dreading next week, and the wait is gonna be awful. They need to fix it next season, they really do.

(also, you don't know me but hi *waves*, you're kinda awesome and I lurk)

[inderpal.livejournal.com]

Hi, uhm, far as I know we have never talked, but I found this post through clicking links (as one does) and I couldn't agree more. After last night's mess, I actually had to rewatch AHBL, because while that hurts, it at least hurts in a good way. SPN has been and will always be the SamandDean show for me and this season has been so far from that, I want to throw the remote at the screen and/or hide under my blanket. I don't mind Castiel or Ruby, but I want my boys back! ;_;

[(Anonymous)]

So I just watched the episode. ;___; Remember when the show was killing demons and saving lives and there were brothers in it? I WANT THAT SHOW BACK. What the actual fuck is all this stuff with angels and Lucifer, show? I went along with their fights and their pain when it was Sam and Dean and their issues with each other that pulled them apart, but when it's a "higher/lower" power pulling the strings? I'm sorry, but I agree with you. Not what I signed up for!

I'm just so angry and upset right now.