one more miracle

I'm sleepy and a little bit depressed, so this won't be long. Just checking in.

Being home is strange. I always love being with my dad, but this house is small and messy and suffocating. I itch to do things and see people, but I can't. Because they're across the ocean or scattered across the states. I skyped with Niall today, which was lovely - we were using webcams, and we were both smiling so hard our faces hurt. It was the first time I'd seen his face since I kissed him goodbye at the airport. I adore him. And I sent an email to Dara with slim hope of getting a reply, then 20 minutes later, bam, he answered. It pretty much made my evening. And gives me hope that we might actually stay in touch. I also skyped with Kate, though not very long because the poor dear is sick and her throat hurts a lot.

I know these names don't really mean anything to you. This journal has really become a very personal thing, almost a diary, where I record things I want to remember. Soon I'm going to sit down and just write about Ireland, while it is gloriously fresh in my memory. I want to remember everything.

So that this entry has a point... I want to move to Ireland at some point, perhaps after graduating from college (I have one year left), and I was wondering if any of you had any insight on something like that. Like, how hard is it to move from one country to another, particularly the States to Europe? What are the chances of me finding a good job with just a BA in Chemistry? Should I do grad school right away instead of trying to go the employment route first, and grad school later? Any practical advice would be much appreciated - I don't like daydreaming about something without concrete facts to think about.

I just know I need to go back there.

Wow, yawning my face off - I'm still totally on Ireland time and jetlagged. Night loves.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to be quite incommunicado the next few days. That's because every single second I am either with people I love or getting ready to go out with people I love. Right now it is the latter. I am scrolling rapidly through my flist so as not to miss anything, but I really can't comment and I won't be replying much to comments. I'm sorry! I love all your comments, I truly do, but I just have a bigger priority right now - making the best of my time remaining in Ireland.

I'm going to be posting quite a lot though, because I want some kind of record of these days.

Today I spent entirely with Dara, Paul, and Richard, and later Ste. It was lovely. No matter how ridiculous and kind of immature those boys can be, I adore their stupid faces and am always happy being with them. The fact that Dara called ME immediately after they finished their exams gave me so much joy I can't quite adequately describe it. When I am that fond of someone, I always kind of assume that they're not going to be as fond of me (until we reach that point where it's just blatant mutual love) so when he actively seeks my company, it makes me squeehopwriggle. He made a comment about today being my day with them, as in, out of my days remaining one of them had to be spent entirely with them. Which I was hoping for but didn't dream would actually happen. We hung out in sci fi because it was raining and watched 28 Days Later and drank (I am QUITE intoxicated right now!) and we went out to a Chinese all-you-can-eat buffet for dinner/lunch and then we played video games and it was so joyous.

Have one picture from today, because I don't think I'll be able to keep up with that photo meme. Paul and Dara being precious in the rain.


Now I'm getting ready to go out for a GIRLS' NIGHT woooo! *twirlhops* Then TOMORROW I get to have lunch with Kate and Megan and coffee with Bren and hopefully see Sinead and then FIBBERS with Dara and Paul and Richard and moooore!

YAY LIFE. Can this week last forever?!

Do you guys know how fucking in love I am with Eliza Dushku? DO YOU??????

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Well, IT'S A LOT. So much so that I still have TWO icons of Faith when I have no other Buffy or Angel ones. I love herrrrrr. And now she's STARRING in a new JOSS WHEDON show and that sentence right there makes me want to explode for joy. AFlkdsjdlf;kdalsdkjfa;lsdkfj.

This bout of flailing is brought on by THE NEW DOLLHOUSE TRAILER!!!! Seriously, I'm DYIN, you guys. DYIN. (They used a Foo Fighters song too! HELLS YES!)

Eliza looks SO SEXY, she's going to kick so much ass in this role, I can't even.

Also also, there's a clip of a one minute scene from the pilot. CUE MORE KEYBOARD SMASH. (Spoilers in both of these, obviously.) I just.... WHY DO WE HAVE TO WAIT TIL JANUARY?

*flails about* Yaaaaaaaay ElizaandJoss :D:D:D

In more personal joy inducing news, my darling wonderful friends are setting up a trip to an island off the west coast of Ireland for a weekend after exams!! I AM SO EXCITED!!! Three of my MOST FAVORITE people are going, Louise and Paddy and NIALL, and I seriously could not have asked for a better trip to close off my days here. It's going to be sunny and gorgeous and I. Can't. Wait. *beams!*

ALSO JOYFUL, it is FRIDAY and we know what THAT means!! Or, uh, if you don't (which is perfectly understandable), tonight I am hitting a club with Dara and I am EXCITED. *beams*

(I. Hate. Exams. >:()