one more miracle

Firstly: Happy birthday glamorous_nymph! I hope it is a lovely one. ♥

Secondly: LOOK I HAVE A JACOB PITTS ICON. He's so pretty siiiiigh. I maaade it! And I feel I should share the original picture with you, because HOLY PIERCING EYES BATMAN. *___* ( Click at your own risk! )

Speaking of Jacob Pitts, I rewatched some of Justified episode 2 today (and right after I tweeted about it, Brian Schechter tweeted only the words "Justified episode 2" - it was creepy) and man, I forgot that Tim (JACOB PITTS) has some really great scenes there! I love the conversation he has with Raylan about watching targets when he was a sniper in Afghanistan. I want more character development like that, and more one-on-one hotass dudes time! C'mon show! Overall, though, I'm REALLY loving Justified. A lot. You should watch it!

So I had a whole bunch of things planned to post about, and then I randomly clicked on a tab in which I've been going back and reading all my Dublin LJ entries. I found one where I talked about Niall, near the end of my time there, and god, it's SO OBVIOUS that I was completely ass-over-teakettle for him, and he was for ME, and we did nothing about it until my last week there. Why do we fail so hard? I don't say this lightly, but - I love him. I do. We've been an ocean apart for two years, yet I feel closer to him than most other people in the universe. We've maintained a beautiful friendship through emails and talking all the time, and he's just - so important to me. I love him. I do. I think I might do something about it this time I'm back in Dublin, because even though we can't really be together, I want him to know how I feel. *decisive nod*

Okay, current things! On Thursday, I was starting a new big experiment I've never done before. And it was my second to last day in the lab. It was a day of total fail - the fire alarm went off twice for no reason, a machine I was using cut out, etc. Long story short, I was in lab until past 11 PM, and ate Cheez-Its for dinner. Awesome. So needless to say, I was exhausted, and the next morning my alarm made nary a dent in my rock-like slumber. I woke up at 2 pm, woozy and confused, and went OH SHIT. I emailed my boss and rushed in. She told me she hadn't laughed like that in a while! Haha. Anyway, it was a great motivator to have such limited time (I had a dinner party to be at at 7:30!) and I got a shitload of science done in a very short time. I got one very exciting result! As in, the first result that made me go "oh wow!" all semester. Better late than never right? :P So that was my last day of experiments. On Monday, I'll give my research presentation, then I'll be done! *hands*

Apparently, I "matched" with four guys from speed dating - three engineers and a computer scientist. Hilarious. All three engineers have emailed me, which is sweet, but I honestly don't really remember which they were, except for one of them, and he's pretty zany. Which can be a good thing, but I don't know. I'm dithering. Anyway, my roomies poked and prodded at me until I just said yes to the one who set a concrete time and place, so we're going for brunch tomorrow! *hands* We'll see. I highly doubt this will turn into anything (these guys, like, embody my problems with Dave multiplied by a billionty, and rather made me miss him, honestly) but it could be, if nothing else, a nice brunch and conversation. Plus, it's at Zingerman's, which is kind of what Ann Arbor's famous for - it's a whole block away from my house and I've NEVER BEEN. So he wins at setting up a date, haha. He might actually be the one who liked Supernatural - I can't remember! That would be fun.

On Friday, Emily and I went to Noah's for dinner with a bunch of his friends, which was fun, and then we all went out. We went to a bar called the Jolly Pumpkin where they distill their own liquors, and I had I had this AMAZING cocktail called a Cran Strawberry which was their in-house cranberry vodka and muddled strawberries and OMNOMNOMNOM. Amazing. And a huge plus, the waiter was SO CUTE I COULD HAVE DIED. He had short curly hair and this really deep, sexy voice and unfffff. I left my number on the receipt because he was so hot I just couldn't NOT, but obviously nothing came of it. No way a guy that looks like that is single, and no way he finds me attractive anyway. :P

Hmm, boy-crazy, ME? And to think I let a perfectly nice one go. /o\ Gah, I don't know. I still wonder if that was right. But then I think about how much more intensely I feel about Niall than I did about Dave, and I probably did. Just that one happens to live in my town and the other is across the ocean. :-/

Lalala, rambling entry is rambling. I'll just put it out of its misery. I really should go to bed, so I can be up and at em for my brunch date. Do you realize that this is kind of my first actual date with a guy that I don't already know quite well, or that I'm not already seeing? Yeah. Guess it's time!

So you don't have your birthday on your userinfo, but I have sneakily deduced from shotgunteacup's happy birthday post that it is your birthday, today or yesterday or something, miss Matilda! So... HAPPY BIRTHDAY erode!!! I am so happy to have met you, utterly by chance as the MCR gods smiled upon us. I know getting to the concert and getting tickets was a bit of a clusterfuck, but it was one of the most amazing nights of my life and I'm so glad I got to share it with your awesome self. I hope you have a fantabulous birthday <3333

I watched the mid-season finale of BSG on Scifi, LIVE, with my brother tonight. I have one thing to say: !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also, Kara and Lee in the same ROOM gives me heart palpitations at this point, you guys, I love them forever and ever AMEN. (I know, four years and my priorities are still exactly where they always were. What can I say, I'm loyal!)

Oh, um, I'm home safe! Obviously! According to my still-on-Ireland-time watch, it is 4:30 in the morning. I am SO EXHAUSTED and yet i have not been able to make myself go to bed. Yeah, idk. I got my last text from Ireland over the whole ocean from Niall. He's going to Lou's house with Ronan and Paddy (or already went, I guess). My stomach hurts with how much I want to be with them.

It's good to be home though. My family's pretty awesome, overall. I love my daddy, and home cooked meals.

I watched Peetwentz's new show on MTV tonight. Not gonna lie, I thought it was pretty lame. The videos chosen made me want to hit my head on something blunt and hard. The Pussycat Dolls? Really? *forks eyes out* The panic babies playing TGG was joyous, of course, but it was exactly like all the HCT live videos, right down to the (adorable) guitar sex and mic sharing. Pete looked nervous, and the whole "viewers vote on how they liked the video" thing was just lame, especially when the viewers disagreed with the announcers on Snoop Dogg's and the announcer guy was like "...well, I don't agree, so keep sending those votes in and FIX THESE NUMBERS!!!" He didn't say exactly that, but close! I hope it will improve, but yeah. Idk. The best part was Snoop Dogg giving Pete and Ashlee parenting advice. Ashlee is so fucking adorable, you guys, even though Pete and her look about 12 together and they're going to be parents? Really? It boggles my mind.

Oh Pweezy. <3

Ummm sleepy. Bed time nao. Night loves.

I tend to call my good friends "dear" and "love" all the time lately. It's kind of a weird verbal quirk I've developed out of nowhere. I don't know. Anyway, the other day Niall called me "dear" and it was seriously the most adorable thing that's ever happened. There was kind of a half second pause where we both blinked, and then someone pressed unpause and we carried on like nothing had happened. I seriously love him so much and want to keep him forever.

Today was tragically wasted on lunch with the girls and lazing around and doing NOTHING. I kept meaning to start studying and then, um. Didn't. I got halfheartedly started this evening but basically didn't accomplish anything. It's such a dauntingly massive pile of information, it's just impossible to know where to start. But I got my head around it enough that I'll be able to get started bright and early tomorrow, and then go for Cosmos and the Sex and the City movie with a gay boy (and clayeer!) tomorrow night. EXCITED!

Good news - my roommate is working things out with her boyfriend. I think he's finally cooled down and come around and used his brain, and she's laughing and eating like normal again. I'm so relieved.

My other roommate, Megan, leaves tomorrow. She's been so weird all year, holing up in the apartment downstairs with her boyfriend. So it's kind of awkward figuring out how to say goodbye. She actually really wants to leave and has no friends here to say goodbye to. What a waste of a year, you know? Eh, whatever.

I talked to Emily, the one who left yesterday and a good friend of mine, online today. She says it's really nice to be home but she also misses Dublin a lot. She loves her family and her home so I'm glad she has that now to comfort her. She gets to be there all summer because she's working there, which made me realize how I'm...not going to be. I get home, run around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to accomplish things for a week, hug my parents a few times, and then move to Pennsylvania to live in an apartment by myself and work all summer. Rob will be moving in in July, but I will be alone in my apartment for the weeks in which I will be most emotionally vulnerable. I'll be calling my friends in Ireland every day in order to avoid a breakdown :(

My journal has essentially become entirely personal - I'm sorry about that. I'm sure I'll bury myself in fannish things this summer to distract myself. But right now I want to remember every second of my remaining time here, so. I hope you're not too bored!

<3

Do you guys know how fucking in love I am with Eliza Dushku? DO YOU??????

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Well, IT'S A LOT. So much so that I still have TWO icons of Faith when I have no other Buffy or Angel ones. I love herrrrrr. And now she's STARRING in a new JOSS WHEDON show and that sentence right there makes me want to explode for joy. AFlkdsjdlf;kdalsdkjfa;lsdkfj.

This bout of flailing is brought on by THE NEW DOLLHOUSE TRAILER!!!! Seriously, I'm DYIN, you guys. DYIN. (They used a Foo Fighters song too! HELLS YES!)

Eliza looks SO SEXY, she's going to kick so much ass in this role, I can't even.

Also also, there's a clip of a one minute scene from the pilot. CUE MORE KEYBOARD SMASH. (Spoilers in both of these, obviously.) I just.... WHY DO WE HAVE TO WAIT TIL JANUARY?

*flails about* Yaaaaaaaay ElizaandJoss :D:D:D

In more personal joy inducing news, my darling wonderful friends are setting up a trip to an island off the west coast of Ireland for a weekend after exams!! I AM SO EXCITED!!! Three of my MOST FAVORITE people are going, Louise and Paddy and NIALL, and I seriously could not have asked for a better trip to close off my days here. It's going to be sunny and gorgeous and I. Can't. Wait. *beams!*

ALSO JOYFUL, it is FRIDAY and we know what THAT means!! Or, uh, if you don't (which is perfectly understandable), tonight I am hitting a club with Dara and I am EXCITED. *beams*

(I. Hate. Exams. >:()

I got home from my choral performance about an hour ago. So glad it's done with! I didn't feel like it went too terribly well - there were actually a couple movements of Brahms that I had maybe sung once before the rehearsal today, and I was literally sight reading what felt like new stuff during the concert - but Niall said that it was a "powerful performance" and he really enjoyed it, so I suppose that's what matters! It's so much easier to tell when something goes wrong when you have the music in front of you, anyway. And oh yeah, NIALL CAME! :D None of my other friends did, but he came, by himself, and gave me a hug of congratulations after. And he genuinely seemed to have enjoyed himself! (He's a huge music geek, so it's unsurprising, but still ♥) He's such a good friend, I am so glad to know him. And it was really good to talk to him after not seeing him for 2 weeks! Made me realize how much I miss everyone.

I was so ridiculously uncomfortable during the performance, and now I am ridiculously sore, from standing up for an hour. Wtf? My shoulders and neck are killing me from holding the awkward score folder, and my feet were actually numb about 10 minutes into it, and my knee that I messed up in karate was complaining loudly. I feel like I just ran a marathon, not sang in a concert >.< Ow ow ow. I totally bailed on the reception because I needed pajamas and my bed. And chocolate. Gah.

In happier news, I got an email from my study abroad coordinator back home responding to my questions about what requirements I have met while studying here, and he said that I am totally on track for completing my chemistry major, with the biochemistry option and math minor as I wanted! YAY!!!! I was so happy to hear that, because I was really getting quite worried. \o/

Re: texting James - how often is too often? He didn't respond to my text earlier today, and I don't want to be pushy about possibly hanging out tomorrow, but then again I really really want to see him and it sounded like he wanted to see me. I think I'll wait until tomorrow when I'm actually on campus and text him to see what's up. I'm dying to know if he thinks something could happen between us too!

I have my Kate back!! I just sat and chatted with her in her room for like 45 minutes, it's so good to see her again. She's totally my rock of sanity among the American students. She was in the States visiting her family and boyfriend for the whole break, so I hadn't seen her in 3 weeks! Yay for life going back to normal :)

Still ridiculously in love with Northern Downpour. (I want to see them play it live!!) Also addicted to The Hush Sound's "Wine Red," randomly, even though it's from the older album. I just looove that song, and the video's pretty presh.