one more miracle

So I was pondering about why, of all my OTPs, Sam and Dean stand head and shoulders above the rest. Especially in light of Croatoan.

( A bit of rambling. Spoilers for Buffy, Queer as Folk, Firefly, Serenity (DONT CLICK CASSI), and Boondock Saints. )

*draws eleventy billion hearts*

And now, I have a poll for you all! The absolutely wondrous wendy bought me a rename token, and I need to make up my mind on how to use it! I have two choices right now. The first is "taivaallinen," which means "heavenly" in Finnish and is just something I found while poking around dictionaries and such. I think it's an absolutely gorgeous word. The other is "exsequor," which is Latin for "to follow to the grave," and basically after Croatoan (see everything I just rambled about!) it feels ridiculously appropriate for Sam and Dean, and I kinda vaguely want my name to be a tribute to them.

So! Help me decide!

[Poll #885925]

Five milligrams of endothelin-1 - $1300

I was going to make this a whole mastercard thing, but I can think of nothing priceless related to that. But just look at that number! If you're wondering what endothelin-1 is, it's the hormone I've been treating the blood vessels with at work. And 5 mg is not much at ALL. It's a TINY amount. And it's THIRTEEN HUNDRED DOLLARS!! (!!!) Absolutely INSANE. And apparently I've been using it at way too high of a rate, for reasons too complicated to fully explain - but it really wasn't my fault, that's what my professor told me to do! So I'm trying to cling to that instead of self-flagellating ruthlessly, as I am wont to do. Oy.

Today was a really crappy day. That was kind of the reason, but I was also feeling vaguely sicky, and my mood was negative and bitter ALL day. After dinner I just had to go out for a run to clear my head. I ran hard, harder than I had been, and it hurt but it also felt good. I'm not feeling so omgtheworldsuckseveryoneshouldDIE anymore, which is good.

Tigana continues to absolutely blow my mind. No one's died yet, though there have been two CLOSE calls, so I'm really nervous about who's gonna bite it. Because SOMEONE has to - Kay's books always leave me in tears, and besides, there's a war just starting. So. UH OH. *chews fingernails*

I watched Ariel with Meg tonight. Simon is so much love omg. I fall more for that man every time I see an episode of Firefly. Oh SIMON. Competence is so fucking sexy. "Your patient should be dead." And then the LOOK he gives that incompetent idiot, sdljfhasdkfjhsad. Makes me want to jump his bones. Um. Not that I don't want to ALL THE TIME. *ahem*

.....ASDFKJHADFKJHDKHASDKDJ!!!!! *POINTS AND FLAILS* OMGOMGOMG!!!! I just went to IMDB to see what Sean Maher's got on his plate (the answer is a big fat NOTHING, unfortunately) and THIS WAS HIS PICTURE!!! *STARES AND STARES AND STARES* Wow. Just. WOW. I hadn't SEEN that one before!! (How is that possible???)

Wow.

And on that note, farewell my lovelies!

(How much do I love this image for the enthralled mood? Awwwwwwwww)