exsequar | As the fragments of my skull begin to fall, fall on your tongue like pixie dust

I have commenced my second week of lectures (I know, what the hell? You've all been in school for aaaaages) and I'm feeling a bit better about some of them, a bit wary of others. Even though I'm taking just about the same number of hours of courses as I did back home, it feels like a lot more because 8 subjects is so much more overwhelming than 4, especially when 7 of them are chemistry/biochemistry, as opposed to ONE. I'm just not sure how much reading and focus I'm supposed to do or give to each subject. Gah!

Just to show you how insane the life of a chemistry student is, here's my schedule! (Each lecture starts on the hour and lasts ~50 minutes)

Monday:
9 - Quantum Chemistry
11 - Organometallics
4 - Thermodynamics

Tuesday:
10 - Quantum Chemistry
11 - Group Theory
2 - Proteins & Enzymes
3 - Medicinal Chemistry
4 - Proteins & Enzymes
(5-7 - Karate)

Wednesday:
10 - Electrochemistry
11 - European Societies
1 - European Societies
2 - Medicinal Chemistry
(7-9 - Choir)

Thursday:
9-12 and 2-5 - Physical chemistry lab
(5-7 - Karate)

Friday:
10-1 - Computational physical chemistry lab

FUN! \o/ It wasn't SO terrible until I picked up quantum chemistry (two days that started at 11! Score!) but now it's just kind of like I'm going to be dead of exhaustion really soon, heh. We'll see.

Of course, it doesn't help that I have yet to be HEALTHY. I arrived in Ireland with a cough which has STILL not gone away, and now today on top of that I've felt lightheaded, flushed, achey, and tired. I hope it's a 24 hour thing, and not a lingering flu that will lay me out for a week. BLEH. I had to tell Simon not to come up today, because I am just not up for more than drinking tea on the couch, and I think he was angry/disappointed, as his texts were very terse. :(

Also, tonight Kevin Smith is coming to talk to my college, but I really do not feel like making the fifteen minute hike, and then sitting in an uncomfortable chair for however many hours. Like I said. Tea. Couch. Sigh.

Oh I forgot to tell you guys! Guess who might be coming to talk to my school? Oh yeah, that's right, CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY. *falls over laughing* I just... WHAT? What the HELL has Chad Michael Mayhem done to be invited to talk at the oldest university in Ireland??? Ahahaha. There's a chance he might not come, but if he does I might have to go just for the comedic value. Now WHY couldn't it have been Jared or Jensen??? Gosh.

Amusing bandom thing -

redbrickrose was talking about Gabe in an entry, and how you kind of can't take him seriously because then you'll be super skeeved out, so you love him A LOT A LOT but it's very ironic, because let's face it, he's a crazy dude. So then she proposed an Ironic Love spectrum, with Gabe as the most ironic and Gerard as the least. I'm not sure Gerard would be the least for me, but I think it's a hilarious idea, and I want to kind of think about this!
Now, this might prove difficult because I have very little irony in my love for a lot of these boys, or, for that matter, the music and the whole scene aesthetic. I give my heart fully to things when I am obsessed and tend to lose any kind of critical distance.

That said, first up is definitely Gabe. My love for him is the newest, and he is one crazy motherfucker, yaknow? Sometimes I'm not sure how much of his insanity he actually believes. But I still love him because he is hilarious and precious and one awesome ball of energy <3

Next up... hm. Perhaps Travis? I mean, I know he's a very nice guy, but I just have not seen much material of him (interviews and the like) and he's so often drunk or high (not really a fan), and I didn't like his live performance at the VMAs much at all. Part of it is that I just do not like hip hop music. I mean, I still love him! He likes to grope William and Gabe! He loves all the precious little boys in the scene! But. Yeah. Healthy dash of irony.

Next I think would be Pete. Now, there's a lot of things to really adore about Pete, and I'll be the first to defend him to some random person who just knows his dick leaked on the internet. But at the same time, he does some stupid shit. Release the Bats, what I've heard about it, is pretty much revolting. Sometimes he acts like a twelve year old. Sometimes he's a bit too much of a businessman. And he dated a girl way too young for him. And his blog posts are so pretentiously emo, I can't quite help but laugh sometimes. All that said, HE LOVES HIS PATRICK. And he loves music! And he loves roflcoptering with his bass! And he loves his many protege (cough ryanross cough)! And he is a fucking GOOD businessman! And he makes music videos in Uganda to raise awareness about the problems there! Sometimes he's almost painfully sincere, and it just makes me want to ruffle his (ew, mullet-like) hair and feed him cookies! Pete's Peter Pan complex is sometimes just too glaring to ignore, but mostly I feel he's a very good person with his heart very much in the right place.

I'm trying to think who else I have even the slightest irony about loving. Perhaps... William? William drinks a bit more than I'm comfortable with. His lyrics don't really speak to me in a way that Panic! or MCR's do. He's a terrible actor, lmao. (But terrible in the most presh and hilarious way! See, irony!) And the way Tom Conrad described the drama within the band gives me kind of a negative impression of how William leads his little troupe - I far prefer the familial feel of Panic! or MCR or FOB. All THAT said, he can sometimes seem so young and vulnerable and sensitive, I just want to cuddle with him. Or he'll start on an extremely long and rambly explanation of how Decaydance is just one big loving family, awww. And when he smiles, I just have to smile back. He's also really passionate on stage - even though I don't think TAI is the greatest live act, William really puts his heart into it. ILU William!

Most of other boys I just love with no reservations at all. Of course there are varying intensities of love, and some of them I just kind of feel an affection for, or in a couple cases mostly indifference. The most intense and unironic love is saved for: ALL the Panic! boys, Frank, Gerard, Sisky, and Patrick. ♥♥♥

Side note: I think where I'd deviate from most people is Ryan. And perhaps Brendon. I love both of them without a HINT of irony. People say Ryan can be a pretentious ass - I quite simply do not agree. They point out specific interviews and say they want to slap him - I watched that very same interview riveted to his every word. People say Brendon can be intensely obnoxious and immature - again, I never see any of his antics as obnoxious, simply adorable and precious and darling. I would love to be best friends with both of them, and they are my favoritest EVER. (Seriously, my love for the rosevest is unironic. IT'S KIND OF INSANE.)

Okay, that was all kind of pointless but I spent a long time on it so I'm going to post it anyway! SO THERE :P Tell me where everyone is on your irony scale!

To Do list tonight: Have dinner. Read more d-block chemistry. Post at least some of bandom happyplace spam. Watch Dirty Sexy Money and House.

OH BY THE WAY SGA IS THE MOST AMAZING LOVE EVER. GAH HEARTS FOREVERRRRR.

(Pee. Ess. "I ain't suckin you off for any amount of money." OH GERARD. (From the the end of the live Give Em Hell, Kid off LOTMS))

This post is way too long. Over and out.

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