one more miracle

The vets of this journal will remember Jeremy, my (young, gorgeous) film prof from college whom I became actually really close friends with and who made senior year bearable. I talked about him far too much, and I do apologize about that, but he really was the glue keeping me together that year.

Anywho, I emailed him letting him know that I'll be back in town, and asking if he wanted to get together and catch up. He just replied and INVITED ME TO HIS HOUSE FOR DINNER! ♥____________♥ I am seriously so full of giddy glee! I get to meet his two month old baby boy! And his wife, whom I haven't met yet! And hang out and chat and just be with him again! He's just... one of those people who makes me feel infinitely comfortable and happy - you know? Those people don't come along very often. I'm really, really, really excited about this. Yay. :D

You know all those things that went shitty yesterday? Magically they all fixed themselves today. I RECEIVED MY BAND OF BROTHERS DVDs!!!! :D The lovely UPS delivery guy who I always say hi to brought them to me at work, and I could have kissed him! :D Then the experiment that took all day Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday until 9 PM worked GREAT and my boss is really happy! \\\o/// And THEN, one of my project group members actually said something that really helped me straighten out my thinking and stop panicking, and today I got a lot of productive research done and wrote up a respectable outline for our paper!

This yo yo is up for a moment. I'm predicting I'll actually manage to stay up for a while - tomorrow hang times with my Ann Arbor besties, then driving HOME and seeing daddy and mommy and lil sis, then high school teachers <333, then JEREMY OMGGG, then Rob and MICHELLLLLE and and!! It's going to be glorious.

Thanks for putting up with my shit, y'all. ♥

Dollhouse, Joss Whedon, and the Strange and Difficult Path of Feminist Dudes: Some Thoughts - This is a truly excellent blog post about Dollhouse and why it works. It's an excellent perspective on Dollhouse as a show entirely about consent, and discusses how in order to deal better with nasty issues, the metaphors necessarily have to be uglier. Also contains an interesting thought on how Topher may be a self-projection of Joss himself, in that it is his job to hire beautiful women and make them do what he wants, and how that's sometimes a little creepy. Well worth a read, particularly if you dismissed Dollhouse because it creeps you out or something.

I really hope this show gets another season! Same with Castle.

I saw Jeremy today for the first time in a couple weeks! I missed his faaaace. We have coffee plans for Friday, yays. \o/

I graduate from college in just over three weeks. o.O

I don't really have anything else to say! I just wanted to share the Dollhouse link. Hope you all had a good Hump Day!

You should all check out this Etsy shop:



Oh Pangaea Books by Leigh Moss

Leigh is Jeremy's wife and this is her Etsy shop where she sells handmade books. There's blank sketch books, journals, address books, planners, etc etc and they're all GORGEOUS. Seriously. When I'm a little more... liquid in my assets, I'm totally going to buy one. And I think you should go take a look and buy one if you want! You're all artsy and/or writerly folks, and I'm sure she'd appreciate it. :D (Oh, and please let me know if you do!)

I would say more but I'm exhausted so I'm going to go read and go to bed. ♥!

I just wanted to say a quick few words about 2008. All the economic shitstorm and what have you at the end here is casting a pall over the year as a whole, but it was really something special for me... at least at the beginning. The year was quite cruelly split in half for me, so it's hard to remember that Dublin really WAS part of this year. At the same time, it seems a million years ago, or that it lasted just the blink of an eye. Being in Dublin felt like taking a vacation from my own life, or conversely actually living my life for the first time. The memories are so vivid and gorgeous and intense that just looking at a couple pictures can bring everything rushing back and cause tears to prick at my eyes. The first three months of 2008 were easily the best of my life. It was the middle term (Michaelmas) of Trinity's school year, and I didn't have any labs to do, so I was free as a bird. I went to lectures and that was it. So I had endless expanses of free time which I used quite fruitfully. I was going out with my friends and having a blast at least twice a week, and during that time I was becoming extremely close to Kate, Emily, Cary, and Megan. I wasn't dating anyone (I was between Colin and James) so I was just... free. I cannot remember another time when I felt that happy and vibrant and alive. Then my best friend Michelle came to visit me in Dublin, followed immediately by my dad and sister, which was so so much fun. Niall and Laura's birthdays, St. Paddy's Day, Father Ted Night, going to Germany, Belfast, Cardiff, Brighton, and Oxford, endless hours of Guitar Hero, nights at The Pav or Fibbers or The Porterhouse or Doyles, throwing fantastic house parties, the PERFECT last week full of friends and joy... my memories are legion. Niall, Paddy, Lou, Dara, Barry, Bren, Niall C, James, Paul, Sinead, Sarah. It hurts my stomach to not be there anymore, but I will always treasure the memory and the people that are in my life because of Dublin.

*deep breath* Then I came home, and immediately had to start my lab job at my college. I was depressed but determined to make the best of being here... it only kind of worked. The school year started and I was thrust into some of the most intense and constant work I have ever had to accomplish. I also met Jeremy Moss. Oh yeah, and we elected a man that I truly believe in to the presidency. It was a weird, reclusive semester that is such a polar opposite to all that I just described about Dublin. I think I'm still trying to recover my equilibrium. But now I'm heading into my last semester of college, gearing up for grad school, and I don't even know where my head's at. Sometimes I feel impossibly old and grown up, sometimes I feel like a stumbling, naive little child. I'm both excited and scared of what 2009 will bring. I know that nothing will ever be Dublin again (though I do hope I'll make it back this summer) but I do hope that the growing I did in Dublin will serve me in good stead as I try to find my footing.

And that's enough of that! Dublin has been on my mind a lot lately... I think I just needed to talk about it some.

On a completely different note, I have been thinking a lot about vidding lately! I've made three music videos (Harry Potter, Buffy, and Supernatural) and I love all of them so much. I just don't have the tools anymore - the last time I did it I used my PC laptop and actually went through all the complicated crap to get Premiere working. But now I've got a Mac and I don't really want to go through the ridiculous process of downloading and figuring out Final Cut Pro. So I'm playing around with iMovie just to see what happens.

The idea I'm working with? A Merlin vid set to "I Just Can't Wait to be King". YEAH. I think Rob suggested it as a joke while he was watching with me and Michelle, and Michelle and I were like "....YES!" and now it won't leave my head! I started converting and organizing and clipping stuff last night. Who knows if I'll actually follow through with it! But it's just such an awesome idea, and Merlin has the really nice benefit of very limited source material, that I can't not *try*. Heehee.

A side effect of getting back in the vidding mindset is that I keep thinking of songs I listen to as potential vidding songs. I was listening to Pink's (I refuse to call her P!nk) latest album, and the song "Please Don't Leave Me" hit me as hilariously appropriate for Merlin and Arthur. ( Just read these lyrics! )
Seriously, it's lolariously PERFECT. Semi-emo, just like preshface Arthur, but the music has this fun bouncy thing going on that I think would go well with the show. And, my perfect little punching bag. Ahahaha. I don't even know. I just know that it's PERFECT. <3

A couple fun things from today - I chatted with Jeremy on AIM tonight! Just for about 15 minutes, but it was really nice cause I've been missing him. Also, I got a voicemail today from my uncle's sister - she works for the National Institutes of Health and their Graduate Partnership Program. My uncle gave her my CV, and apparently she's really interested, or else she wouldn't be calling, especially since their application deadline was in December! She said she's going out of the country but she's passing me on to someone else in her office, so I'll probably be hearing from them soon. I have no idea if anything would come of it (the GPP is basically where you enroll at a university for your PhD and do courses there, but then do your dissertation research with a mentor at the NIH) but it's still really cool that my CV was apparently that impressive. Gives me good hope for my grad school apps! Which I still need to finish, rar.

I am so relaxed and unstressed right now - I'd forgotten what this feels like. *HAPPY SIGH*

*sighs at lab reports and shitty data and days spent hibernating inside and exams around the corner and car needing repairs and being out of clean socks*

*smiles at Merlin's ridiculousness and Lyla and Timmy Riggins' preciousness and emails from Jeremy about taking us out drinking Monday night and plans to see Dave tonight and nomming on chips and french onion dip even though eating too much made me feel vaguely ill*

Pointless post is pointless! Here, have the macro I found as the background to the computer I work on at my job yesterday.